How much is the concept of happily ever after influenced by our upbringing and family setting?
Is there any truth to children from broken homes not being able to have healthy adult relationships because of the relationships their parents had with each other.
I’ve been thinking lately about the guys I’ve dated and wondering how much my decision to be with them was influenced by my dad being absent and how he treated my mum when he was there.
Growing up I knew our family was different, we had both parents yes but I could always tell something was off. My mum sheltered us from alot so it wasn’t until Grade 6 that I actually understood what was really going on.
My dad’s job required alot of travelling so it was easy to explain his absence and he would always make an appearance after a while. To a child between 2 and 5 the job story made sense but from age 7, things just didn’t add up.
In retrospect I realize there was nothing I craved more than normalcy back then. I made up so many stories at school just to be the same as everyone else, consequently I didn’t have any genuine friendships or connections because I didn’t want anyone to find out what my life was really like.
Fast forward to 2021, I just turned 35 hence the post mortem on my life. I’m doing okay career wise, I have an amazing daughter but I have a couple of failed relationships under my belt.
Ofcourse it takes two to tango and both parties have a stake in whether a relationship works or not. But I’ve been wondering lately whether the choice of men played the biggest role in the relationship not working out.
Do I subconsciously choose men who will not be physically and emotionally available because that’s what I knew growing up?
Do the phrases you married your mum or dad actually have some psychological accuracy and are we choosing to be with the very same people who hurt us growing up?
Does growing up in a broken home make us settle for any and all kinds of love even if it’s not the right love just so we have someone?
A lot of times children from such families will blame themselves for a parent leaving assuming its coz they were not a good enough son or daughter, especially if the parent leaves and starts another family.
Does childhood trauma make us reject people who could be great for us because we somehow dont think we deserve it?
My post today has more questions than answers but writing is about pouring out what’s in your heart and mind. Drop a comment down below if you can relate or have some answers to the questions based on your own experience.
…………………my two cents……….